Scars of friendship lost

The rain falls down around me, emptyness surrounds me.
Darkness settles on my soul, my mind consumed I cannot see.

I never thought that I could loose you, I dreamed you'd always be a friend.
But I guess I've really done it this time, could this really be the end?

I try to move on again but I think of you and fall back to my knees.
What else is left for me to say? I'm begging pretty please!

I know its all my fault and I only have myself to blame.
My actions left a hole in me full of misery and pain.

I don't know what ill do now, loosing a friend like you,
Its like I'm wanderimg through town looking for my lost left shoe.

I stabbed you in the back with words, stuck a knife in my own heart.
I have tried to do my best but for our friendship there has been no new start.

I struck out in blind anger I never meant the words that I said.
Had I held my tongue and bit back my words our friendship would not be dead.

But in a booming thunder swifter than a flash of lightning,
I dealt our friendship a fateful blow with words I now find frightening.

I struck out in a rage as if siezed by a drunken fury,
I cut myself to the heart, my tears now dry and I'm left weary.

I can't take back what I've done no more than I could freeze the sun
But if I could have just one more chance your friendship I would earn.

I've poured out my soul to you I lie here lifeless on the ground.
But I've inflicted wounds too deep and you only turn around.

I'm left here to play the fool a clown with teardrops down my face
But your anger is justified by pain and I stand corrected in my place.

There is nothing left for me to say yet the scar still remains.
Loosing a friend like you has awoke me to the need to change.

I tried to hold on too tight and all it did was make us fight.
Its all done and over now I was wrong and you were right.

You taught me a hard lesson one that I never will forget.
And if I ever get a second chance I can learn from it you can bet.

* in memory of a friend who taught me a lesson hard learned and whose memories I will cherish.